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Breaking dawn...

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 02:16:01 GMT

Breaking dawn will bring revenge
We should know by now we're so sick.
It was building up and no one was watching
We're running out of darkened corners to sweep the waste into
In our distracted focus no one had a chance
When we lined up at the edge, we were open wide
Like fools waiting for a sign
It was a free fall
An act of desperation, our backs against the wall
It was a free fall

I have so much to look forward too..Warped Tour on Wednesday, My birthday on the 19th, Some of my close friends having b-days this month too, my b-day show, and the release of Misery Signals sophomore album Mirrors which comes out on the same day as my b-day show.

I really hope to see everyone at my b-day show on August 22nd at Sons of Italy.

Bands Include:
Search
Mordisk
Gone Through Redemption
Yesterday's Past
Through The Blood of Kings
12 Gauge Facial
Burn Me Down
End it All
Once Beloved

4966 Falmouth Road (Rte. 28)
Cotuit, MA 02635

Doors open at 4, show at 5.
Be there early to party with me.
$10

Also, who's going to Warped Tour? I'm super psyched about the Bridge Nine stage, and a few other bands..it's not completly my type of music, but its a tradition..see you all soon!

I feel like shit..I'm gonna watch some tv and head to bed.

isnt it sad

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 02:23:05 GMT

that everyone im talking to is depressed and sitting around waiting for myspace to start working again? i admit it..i'm waiting too..but its fucked when you really think about it. i'm bored and it sucks that maggies not gonna be home til tomorrow..and that i might not even get to see her tomorrow night. what the fuck!

BIG updates

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 04:03:10 GMT

Wbere to start. I've been in a really good mood lately..cept the fact that my g/f is in Cali still (and until next Sunday.) Other than that things have been well..work is so-so. I'm getting ready for my show on August 22nd..which I expect EVERYONE to be there for...

I know the lineup isnt 100% yet but please bear with me..it'll be worth it and if you don't go just because you don't know the bands, or don't care..fuck you because its not a show to make money..its a show to celebrate the birth of Steve Marsden and I. It's so that we can all get together (with my close friends, and anyone for that matter) and have a good time..I don't get to see everyone as much as I'd like to..and even if I don't know you, because the show certainly isn't invite only, I want you to go..listen to the bands, dance your hearts out, and have a good time. That's it.

Also on the day of the show on August 22nd, Misery Signals releases their sophomore album Mirrors, which is probably the best album ever..check out their myspace to hear The Failsafe and then get in line at the doors on August 22nd.

I really love Cape Cod but I've realized how much I hate the heat.

I work Wednesday until 3 in the afternoon and I have Thursday and Friday off as well if anyone wants to do anything..I don't have 100% plans so you know how to get ahold of me.

Text - 774.408.0217
I-M - philsmomrules

Maggie has my cell phone for those of you who don't know..so if you're friends with her and you want to talk to her, give her a buzz.

I'm wrapping up and I'm gonna call her now..I love her so much.

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 02:43:36 GMT

Wow I never use this thing anymore..mainly because no one reads it anymore..but I figure I'd give it a shot again.

Today I slept in and then picked up Maggie at like..2:45..picked up Emily and Kendra from school and drove them home. Then Maggie and I went back to my house and watched tv and ordered pizza. Then Maggie, Kendra, Brian, Becky and I went and saw Curtis's play at 4C's and then proceeded to feed our fat asses at BK. I have to close at work tomorrow and then I have Friday off. Then INVENTORY AT WORK ON SATURDAY WHOOPEE!!!!

Then Friday June 23rd you better ask for work off..cancel plans...because this is going to be the show of a lifetime.

Anyways...goodnight all.

♥

Good But Tired...

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 14:57:04 GMT

I'm so tired..I've been really tired lately, getting enough sleep and still being exhausted all of the time. I've still got the wretched cough that came with being sick, and that seems to be all thats left. On a happier note..I love Maggie so much..she's the best thing that's happened to me (along with my amazing friends) in a long time. On a shitty note..I have to work from 12-8 today..someone should hang out with me after I get out of work tonight. Stop by and tell me you wanna chill later, or call Staples haha. UM.

I'm tired.

I love you all.

..and we're done.

xxx

Update on my life

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 23:29:29 GMT

I have been so great lately (minus the fact that I've been sick). I have the sweetest girlfriend in the world, who makes me SOOO fucking happy, I have the best friends I could ever ask for, and a family who cares about me..even though sometimes they don't show it. I finally got my taxes done..I should get my money within 10 days or so. Work is so-so..not sure if I wanna stay at Staples or not...but now the reason I'm posting this.

April 23rd in Hamden, CT.

Misery Signals, Black My Heart, Too Pure To Die, and Burn In Silence.

I'm going to this show because

A. Misery Signals is my favorite band EVER.
B. Karl is a wicked nice dude (new MS singer), and is by far the best to replace Jesse, and with no doubt in my mind, be the best choice on vocals for MS EVER by far.
C. Because it's going to be an amazing show, and it will be lots of fun.

So ANYONE who wants to go, let me know. If you can't get a ride up with me, we'll car pool...FIND a way to get to this show..It will honestly be well worth it for you.

I love you all.

♥

xxx

p.s. www.myspace.com/miserysignalsband for more info about the show on the 23rd.

shyt this is whack!

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 02:25:43 GMT

I don't know why I even bother wasting time on LiveJournal this shit is gehhhyyy. Oh well..yet I continue to babble on. I hate being sick..I'm going on my...9th day being sick? UGH. Someone shoot me now. I had a good day off for the most part, I got to sleep in, then Maggie came over and we watched movies n shyt. I have to work tomorrow..and Friday (day) and Saturday (day)..SHIT how whack is that? DAYUMMM. I'm out homie.

Ehhh I feel sick..

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 14:25:27 GMT

but other than that I'm amazing. I had a good weekend as well. Friday night was kind of complicated,people left, came back etc..but throughout the whole night I got to hang out with Emily, Kendra, Steve, Maggie and her friend Hayley. Got to eat at TGIFridays..mmmm. I'm hungry..ugh. Saturday we went to that ridiculous Juice Bar show..I only went cuz I love the boyz in xSearchx other than that..I remember why I stopped going to Juice Bar shows. GTR, Search, and BMD did amazing however..except the kids that were at the show (the people I'm not friends with) just sucked. Sunday I had to wake up at 4am as usual for the early morning shift but I got to spend the day with Maggie which was amazing. She makes me so happy and she's put me in a really good mood lately. I don't get to see her until tomorrow but I know seeing her will be awesome. Ugh I feel sick..I think I'm gonna get some food..my fat ass is hungry. PEACE

♥

xxx

I'm so tired..

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 02:01:20 GMT

You are here because the outside world rejects you...This is your family.

But I actually get two days off this week which hasn't happened in months. I'm wicked excited for the show this Friday. It's gonna be a good time...hopefully it doesn't get too violent. I have to work from 6am to 2pm tomorrow and someone should hang out with me afterwards because I say now that I should go home and sleep when I get out..but we all know that's never the case. Other than that I've been pretty blahhhh lately..I don't know why but hopefully all will pick up soon and I'll be happy again?? ...probably not.

Whateverrr...

xXx

Brotherhood. Family. More than words than words to me. Lifetime loyalty.

I hate my life.

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 03:22:00 GMT

If you're not my friend...you suck. Even some of you who think you're my friend..you suck. I'm really pissed about alot of things right now...So if you're not on my good side FUCK YOU.

xxx

PSH...Ughhh..

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 02:14:06 GMT

I'm so bored..it's 9:10 and I'm not quite tired enough to sleep but I'm BORED AS FUCKKKKK. I had a pretty boring day today. I worked from 8 to 4 then came home and sat on my ass like always w00t! I work morning shifts all week this week so anyone that wants to hang out after 2 or 3 this week just let me know. Also I know its early but who wants to chill this coming weekend, cuz I know I won't be up to anything exciting anyway..except I think I may be hanging out with Anna on Saturday if I remember correctly..? I beleive Saturday is my only day off. I hate working 9 hour days, 6 days a week. Oh well.

In the midst of all of all the heartache..look for the roses.
When destruction tears the world in two..can you find the roses?
There must be more than a tear while I'm falling..
A memory doesn't always cut away.
No Strength to pray for the end.
The weeds turn to roses.

UGH...

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 16:23:54 GMT

I feel like shit. I have bills that I was supposed to pay a week ago that I can't afford to pay. My digital camera that I didn't even get 6 months ago is broken. And overall I feel like shit. I want to go with everyone to get Adam today in Boston but I really feel like shit..and look like shit..but hey, what else is new. I mean last night for example, Steve, Kendra, Emily and I went to Attleboro and Cumberland and I had a fun time..but I'm still miserable. UGH. Someone should hang out with me today and make me happy pleaseee..

:-(

♥

xxx

Woo!

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 14:18:05 GMT

Sooo..Yesterday was a pretty good day. I worked from 1-8 which wasn't bad and then I picked Steve and Kendra up and we went to the movies to meet up with Courtney and her friend Catherine. Sarah was there and we hung out with her for a few minutes hah. Turns out they went thought we were meeting them at the theater in Sandwich..so we ended up seeing Firewall in Sandwich instead of When a Stranger Calls in Hyannis.

Today I work from 10-5 and then someone should hang out with me aftewards!! I think if all goes well I'll have some money to do something tonight, so just text my sidekick (508-292-7198) or i-m me (philsmomrules).

I'm in a pretty good mood. w00t.

♥

xxx

I hate being poor...

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 15:32:56 GMT

Tried going to the bank today to cash my check so I could pay my car insurance bill that is due today..and the bank is closed! REAL fucking cute. I have like 20 bucks to my name, and it'll probably be gone by the end of the day..but whatever. I'll live, right? I've been listening to a lot of music that I haven't listened to in like a year or so..does that mean I miss how things were a year ago..? Probably..But I'm somewhat happy with my life the way it is now. My dad still threatens me with court through his lawyer, I don't know what he wants from me. Yesterday there was an open house at my house..I don't wanna move, and I have no where to go. I don't know what I should do..I know I have friends that will let me stay at their place for a while, but I don't wanna be going from one place week to week, that's just pointless. I feel that there are very few people that I can talk to about things even though everyones like "I'm there for you blah blah" but I don't feel like I can trust anyone at this point. I really need to get my act together. I wish I had a better job because the money I get is decent but I need more..I have bills to pay, and I'm going to have even more when I'm on my own. This really sucks and the day where I have to move out is getting closer and closer. Anyone have any ideas let me know.

xxx

♥

Ticked off..

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 00:03:55 GMT

WE WILL NOT COMPROMISE. I could, I would, never lie to my roots. Never.

Whoop-dee-fucking-doo I feel like shit. I'm tired as shit from work and to top it off I'm really upset about some shit that happened today. But I don't wanna be in a bad mood so I guess I'm gonna drop it.

Tomorrow I work from 1pm to 8pm and I think I'm going to the movies with Courtney after.

We'll see what tomorrow brings...

Keep it edge, or keep it to yourself.

xxx

Tiredddd

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 16:25:19 GMT

I'm tired..I didnt get to bed until 1 am and woke up at 3:45 to go to work today. I worked from 5am to 10am and BOY did it suck..UGH. Real Estate people are here for some fucking open house today then I have no idea what I'm doing afterwards. I'm bored, cranky, hungry and tiredddd.!!

Someone call me/visit me/make me happy!

♥

xxx

For Myself, For My Friends, For My Family FOREVER

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 13:29:54 GMT

STRAIGHT FUCKING EDGE!

Yeah so last night was pretty cool. Emz, Jill, Kendra, Steve and I went to kingston for a while and went to Uno's for some dank food. Brittany was there but she was meandering around with her friends who I don't think cared for us too much. I have to work a short day today from 9 til 3 so if any of you fucks wanna visit me you should. Then tonight I'm hanging out with Danielle cuz she leaves for Mexico on Monday and she won't take me with her. :-(

So far this has been a good weekend..even though I've been in a weird mood. BUT.

El The Bee.

Eh. Double You. Dee.

I'm tired of being tired.

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 13:22:12 GMT

I've been so fucking exhausted lately its ridiculous. I like a big paycheck, but working these ridiculous amount of awkward hours really sucks. Oh well. It's Valentines Day. w00t.

I get to see Danielle tonight and then I get to go to bed and wake up in the am for another longggg day at work.

Anyone wanna see Bleeding Through with me on March 10th? It should be a good time. I'm not positive I'm gonna go but we'll see.

Soo...

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 03:08:05 GMT

..tomorrow is Valentine's Day. w00t. I work a short day, 10-4 then going out to dinner with Danielle. I'm so tired right now but I have no ambition to go upstairs and go to bed..hmpf. Oh well. It's gonna be a long work week for me, but I'm free Friday and hopefully Saturday night. I'm gonna go check my myspace and probably hit the hay. PEACE.

Of calm and quiet walls, I drew her close.
Of triangles, and bleeding wrists, I drew her close.
That drumming in my sleep.
Return and be free always.

Should I....

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 14:14:19 GMT

...start using this wretched site again? I finally have my internet back so I can use LJ if I decide to..but I'm not sure if I should or not. Hmpf. I really don't wanna work today. 1-8..6 days of work this week, but I have the weekend (Friday night, and Saturday all day) off if anyone wants to chill.

p.s. after previewing this entry..it looks like I have decided to come back to LJ..haha.

this is my suggestion death to all emotion
let this be the end of us
bitter cold engulfs the soul

xxx

Internet

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 01:22:56 GMT

My internet is getting shut off soon. That faggot that who calls himself my father hasn't been paying ANY of his bills..and the internet is one of them. The courts say that "its not a necessity" or whatever..but I can't pay it because its in his name..and nothing can be done until he pays it..so this means that he's gonna get fucked over good..I had a great fucking day (seriously). I hung out with Emily and Jill, we got food..dropped Emily back off, then Jill and I chilled at her house..and I had an awesome time..then I come home to this bullshit..it's always something...I don't even know anymore..

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 18:21:46 GMT

..in futile hope of its return.

Yeah I'm an idiot. I was supposed to go to my insurance company, and to the registry to do shit with my car today..but I held off and said I'd do it tomorrow..turns out I guess we're getting snow? So that should be fun..woo-hoo. UGH. I wish I could go now, but I have to be to work soon. On that note I work from 2-10 today, and whoever reads this should visit me before 9 (when we close).

g/f application yo.

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 17:15:21 GMT

-Name:
-Age:
-Height:
-Ethnicity (not that it matters):
-Birthday:
-What do u think about me?:
-Favorite Food:
-Favorite Color:
-Do you like to cuddle?:
-Do you drink/smoke?:
-On our first date, where would we go?:
-Do you have a car?:
-Do you get jealous?:
-Would u make me soup if i was sick =( :
-What kind of music do you like?:
-What are some of your fav. movies?:
-Is sex important?:
-What do u think my best physical feature is?:
-What doyou think your best physical feature is?
-What do u like best about my personality?:
-Why would YOU make me happy?:
-What are some of your good qualities?:
-What are some of your bad qualities?:
-What do you look for in a guy?:
-Are you a party animal?:
-How would u make me laugh?:
-Do you have any tattoos or piercings?:
-Name one thing that is special about you:
-Anything else you would like to tell me?:

Snow..

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 16:31:30 GMT

I can't stand snow. I'm sorry everyones like "AHH I LOVE IT" ...I really can't deal with it. It makes me miserable, cold, driving in it sucks. I hope someone agrees with me. Any-who..I ordered pizza so I won't be starving anymore..and then I'll be bored. Once the roads clear up anyone wanna hang out later today?? PLEASEE..haha.

Growing to hate decisive lows,
All i can do is watch it pass.
I resonate at the pitch of discontent,
I am peripheral movement.

Busy cold day..

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 05:10:40 GMT

Today was awesome. I skated with Danielle for a while which was awesome cuz Danielle rules. Then we picked up Emily and we went to Sam Diegos for dinner and I got an ill beef and bean burrito. w00t. Then we met up with Mason at the mall and I ran into a ton of people I know there as well. I went to Newbury Comics and got the Killswitch Engage DVD and I also got an autographed dvd cover signed by KSE because I was the first of some-odd-number of people to buy the DVD. After dropping Emily and Danielle off I stopped by Andrea's house where I ended up staying and watching Mr. and Mrs. Smith with her, her family, and ironicly, Anna Smith ha. Overall tonight was fucking great. ♥&heartzzz;